Saturday, May 14, 2011

Just there...

I've been struggling with the blah's lately. Work is fine, home is fine, BF is fine. Everything is just that, fine. Nothing exciting, special or wonderful going on. Then I think about how selfish and complacent I am being by begrudjing my fine-ness. After all of the years of digging myself out of chaos, fine should be extra special. Fine for me should be more than enough, but I will have to admit, I am bored.

Things with the BF have hit a plateau and have stuck there for quite awhile. We are almost to our one year anniversary and I just don't see us going anywhere else soon. Of course then I started thinking about what else I want from the BF. Do I want to get married? Do I want us to live together? Do I want more time with him? I can't seem to say yes to any of these questions so I realize that we are right where we need to be.

I guess I am just stuck in that place between bad and good where everything is just kind of blah.


  1. It took me a long time to get used to nothing-ness going on. I too lived on the roller coaster for far too long.

    Now I'm LOVING the monotony of the merry go round. :)

    (I'm actualy looking forward to laundry and home cooking tomorrow.)

  2. It's so easy to get hooked on the chaos. It's addictive, I know. Coast, my friend...the answers will come to you.