On a daily basis, I run through the gambit of what I need to do for myself, my daughter, my family, but seldom do I worry if I am doing enough for others outside of that immediate group. "I am too busy" I tell myself. "I have so much going on, how could I possibly take on more" is another favorite of mine. Then I ponder those "special" people in our lives that somehow always manage to do more. They do for their families, they do for their friends AND they still manage to find time to do for others. Strangers, neighbors, community members, each group gets some time from them. You will recognize these people as the ones that always have time to chat for a few minutes as you are going in or out of the house or when you happen to run into them at the grocery store. They are the providers of the baked goods to the family that just had a crisis, they are the hands that help after a tragedy and they are the hands that clap at our successes.
I tend to focus on the immediate. What do I need to get done for me and my family today, this week, this month. Beyond that I can't be bothered. Why make those plans when I don't even have time to consider what I have to do now. Then next month rolls around and I find that everyone else is just as busy as I am, but do I learn from my mistake and plan ahead? No, I again get wrapped up in myself and what I need to do for now.
The funniest part of this is that I have never been a procrastinator. I have always been a planner, looking ahead onto the horizon of what comes next. Somehow in the last year I have become someone living just for the now. If someone asks me about the future I get flustered and brush them off. How will I know what I am doing then? It is still so far away.
At least now I have realized where I have ended up and can steer my ship back towards the horizon rather than continue to sail in the doldrums!
What have you done for someone else recently?